Syukur

Honestly, if you know me, you know I spend too much time on social media. Which is bad. BUT, that's not the point of this post. I'm just going to share my thought, as always. It's a habit. Writing a blog post is like talking to myself to be honest (which is why I still have this blog) but letting people being able to know it if they want to. I don't talk my thoughts out to people most of the time because my thoughts tend to be 'deep' and sudden which could make people have a drastic change in their mood and feel uneasy. LOL @ me >.<

So, today's post is gonna be on 'syukur'.

I just happened to watch videos of Zarina Zainuddin and her kids these days. I honestly don't really know her. I mean, I thought she looked familiar when I found her on instagram's explore and just then I realized that she's a Malaysian actress which I may or may not have seen on tv. Anyway, she has a pair of twins and they are autistic. If you don't know what austism is, do look up on the internet. As for me, I never really knew what autism is. I've heard of it but never really reacted to it. But watching her sharing videos of her life with her sons made me more aware of this disorder. And possibly made me more understanding of difficulties faced by the family member of an autistic person; might not be as much as I should but enough to respect them #importanceofawareness. Besides, watching her videos actually made me grateful. I realize how strong she is; handling these kids is not easy. AT ALL. Bayangkan, I hanya tengok her videos pun dah rasa 'Ya Allah, would I be as strong if such things happen?'. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. I know it may have sound cheesy but I couldn't express enough what I am feeling. I never meant to say that having a kid with disorder is a disgrace. I just admire how strong and how patient she is, I never know what I'd do in her place. Her love seems so pure. Regardless of what she really feels about it, she shows such an admirable act. She had been putting up with everything in raising her children. I don't know how to put it in words when i said it made me feel grateful. I have no real explanation. I guess some things just affects different people in different way. 

Ramadhan

Salam yall,

ehem.

Assamualaikum and salam sejahtera.

Believe it or not, I'm back after awhile. I've been lacking of ideas and stopped writing ever since I'm in United States, and I'm not surprised if people stopped visiting this site.

Well, how's your Ramadhan so far? A lot of progress? Mine hasn't been that great as I'm only making a slow progress. However, I'm very thankful for having the chance to celebrate Ramadhan this year. Semoga Allah kurniakan rezeki merasai Ramadhan di masa akan datang. InsyaAllah.

So, I'm hereby writing this post with a mission. Lol. Not really. It's just that something has been bothering me these days. Alhamdulillah, I just got back from Malaysia a few weeks ago and came back to United States during the second week of Ramadhan. Missing home, I frequently scrolled through social media on my phone for updates from Malaysia. Well, just to look at what people had for their 'berbuka' and stuff. I know, it's sad. Hahaha.

 So, something caught my attention one day. Well, it's not surprising to see it but I'm still...surprised *insert emoji shrugging*. I can't believe some muslims, particularly, in Malaysia are still begging for non-muslims to 'respect' them during Ramadhan. As in, saying 'Hey, you shouldn't eat in front of us' and (more) dissapointingly, saying 'Hey, you should make way for us in the line (at fast food restaurants) when it's almost Maghrib!'. Really people? Really? 

And as far as I know, that's the only 'respect' they meant.

It's really absurd the more I think of it. It's okay for non-muslims to willingly do that for you. But puh-lease, don't see it as what they should do. Ini tak, when they didn't do as you wished, you pandang macam nak makan orang, making them feel uncomfortable while doing nothing wrong. They're not obligated to fast or not to eat in front of you. Yang wajib puasa tu awak, awak yang patut spread the positive vibes, lagi lagi bulan puasa ni. 

Also, it's crazier to think that we expect the non-muslims to 'respect' us during Ramadhan (especially) when we, ourselves don't even respect the holy month.*

I'm talking about our act and words everyday. Not to mention what deeds we do more in this month compared to any other month? 

Ramadhan is not just about Bazaar Ramadhan.

Sekian, tutup salam.

ps:// I am writing this as a reminder to myself besides sharing my thought. It really came to my mind, if I actually do more this month compared to any other months? Or if they are the same. I am far from perfect and is still working on being a better muslimah. Do pray for me :))

*I realize that this doesn't apply to everyone. But as I said, it's for myself more than pointing to others.